Pendants and Sigils

4 years ago I designed a sigil for myself. This was one of my best works, if I do say so myself, and I waited for a very special occasion in which to charge it.

That occasion occurred this past Friday.

Now I am in negotiations with a lady metalworker in hopes that she will make it into a pendant for me to wear.

On a similar note, about 12 years back I bought a pendant which meant a great deal to me. The unique design and symbolism made it one of my top personable talismans, which I wore constantly.

A few years back, it vanished. I kept it with me everywhere, so I have no clue what could have happened to it. After about two years went by I tried searching for it on-line, but since it was a unique piece made by a blacksmith and commissioned in the store in which I purchased it, I have been unable to find anything close to it's design on-line.

This is what initially led me to create my Sigil....that and because I wanted something that would represent something very personal to me....a few very personal things in fact.

Now, earlier this year I made a pack with my Lady.....which I almost never do because the price is always a bit too high for my preference and the Divine never gives away anything for free. I promised her the usual sacrifices on my part if she would help me find my necklace. Immediately she responded....not so much with words, but with the faint sound of what could only be described as a gong. Seeing how we have nothing of the sort anywhere near the general vicinity, it was pretty obvious that she heard and agreed.

Of course given the fact that I don't make such deals that often, I made a very noob-ish mistake and didn't specific that she could have her sacrifice after I received my necklace, neither did I put any limited as to just how much she could take from our agreed form of payment.

Take note my young Witchlings, never trust outside sources when it comes to your Craft, especially the Divine, because if your wording isn't as precise as possible then you will suffer for it.

Anywho, just when I had given up hope, I accidentally stumbled upon the name of the blacksmith who made my necklace.....something I had specifically searched for over the course of several years just suddenly fell into my lap no less than 10 minutes ago.

I'm going ahead and ordering it, and if I ever find my original one, then I will turn the new one into a bracelet or something, as it is a very important symbol in my faith.

Life is so awesome.....painful, but awesome. :)

Dream Feeding:

The Dream is fading now...

Such a shame. This was the first time I was able to sink my teeth into you, and you were absolutely delicious.

I have waited almost two decades for a taste of you and while you were more than worth the wait, I wish I had more time to savor the experience.

Oh well, there's always next time.

And trust me, there will be a next time.

The Lady in Orange: by: Ntozake Shange

You don't know me, I am not
a deliberate coquette who never
did without.
What I want and I
wanted to be unforgettable.
I wanted to be a memory,
a wound to every man arrogant enough to want me.
I am the wrath of women in
windows fingerin shades.
Ol lace curtains camouflaging despair and
stretch marks.
I glittered honestly delighted
I am desired and allowed those especially
schemin tactful suitors to experience my body and spirit.
Tearin so easily blending with
theirs.
And they were so happy and lay on
my lime sheets full and wet from
my tongue.
I kissed them reverently even ankles
edges of beards... 

All the colors of the rainbow:

My Mate keeps asking me just what type of "Witch" category I would fall under: white, black or grey.

I always immediately answer none of the above because I'm a Warlock, not a Witch. (Yeah, same difference, but I'm allowed to snark about it every now and again.)

He's asking because he's met a Witch, or someone married to a Witch and they apparently use the whole color thing to describe themselves, which there's nothing wrong with doing that, I just don't personally prescribe to it.

I mean, if we're talking colors then I'm pretty much plaid, or maybe polka-dotted. I don't really fit into the other three very neatly. That would suggest order, something which I'm not a huge fan of when it comes to my Craft.

I finally told him that as a balanced practitioner of the Occult, I would therefore learn more towards grey, if those were the only three choices available to me.

Reality Wicca:

There's some dumbass reality show on my TV right now with a Wiccan on it. A Wiccan who doesn't know the difference between a pentagram and a pentacle.

One of the other crusty twats on this show is paranoid that she hexed her, and she's trying to explain that she doesn't believe in that type of Witchcraft.

I have people ask me a lot whether or not I've hexed them and 99% of the time, I haven't because they're not worth the effort, but I never tell then that. I never come right out and tell them that I've hexed them, but I will allude to it.

People tend to be their own worst enemies and I'm not above taking advantage of their paranoia.

If I actually hex someone, I don't tell them about it. I will adamantly deny hexing them if they ask. I never threaten someone with a hex, unless I have zero intention of hexing them, in which case I'll just mumble some vague mumbojumbo at them in order to exploit their fears.

I've had a lot of people tell me that they were going to hex me, or bind me, and I never bother to retaliate against them. I don't have to.

What people don't seem to understand is that this mortal shell of mine is not mine alone. My mind, body and soul are the playground of a Higher Power who's very territorial when it comes to my suffering.

Pain is my homage to her and my flesh is her altar.

If someone is dumb enough to trespass on her property and blaspheme against her temple, then they do so at their own peril.

This isn't about protection. Or keeping me safe. I'm not so arrogant to think that my Lady is some type of guardian angel.

No, she just hates to share her toys.

Eclectic:

Eclectic has always been a favorite word of mine, yet I do not identify as an Eclectic Pagan.

Yes, I do believe in the existence of all of the Gods of every religion past, present and future. I don't even really question the existence of Xenu, I just think his cult is weird.

But, I do not practice the beliefs of other religions as part of my own. I will show respect to other religions and their practices, but it is completely separate from my own belief system.

To me, an Eclectic Pagan is one whose spiritual/religious beliefs are a blend of the beliefs of other religions.

I don't celebrate the typical Solstices and so forth that a lot of Neo-Pagans do. I have always honored Halloween, because of the energy generated on that day. I also feel a similar sensation during Christmas, but for me, all of the winter months/weeks/days are equally sacred. I honor the entirety of Winter.

I hold Valentines day equally sacred as the first of May for the same reasons I do Halloween.....the energy. When enough people give off a certain vibe, it changes the entire atmosphere, and I am sensitive to those changes.

My "holy days" revolve around the Moon.

I believe that the universe was created by Chaos, and so I worship that as well as the Darkness, as it was she who called me.

There is no real name for what type of Pagan I am, because my entire religion is based around visions and Dreams.

Basically my faith has no title because I haven't been given one yet.

I might be eccentric, insane and delusional even, but I am not eclectic. At least not so far as my religion goes.

Black Moon:

Are you ready to get your Moon on?